You Need Wholeness to Help

I see you as radiant, pure, a blushing bride. You are still nervous around me, unsure. Abandon yourself to me, to my love. Don’t put up barriers to keep my love out. 


You think you are open, but you are still partitioning your life. Part to this person, part to that person, part to Me. There are not enough parts of you to go around. You are not supposed to be in pieces, but whole. Let my love envelope you. This is what will make you whole. This is how you can be in ministry without feeling like you’re pulled apart in a million directions. 


When you are truly one with me, your relationships with people will flow in and flow out, like a tide, like the ocean waves coming in and going out. You love the ocean waves; it’s relaxing to you to watch and see them. Now you will experience people in the same way. They flow into your life, receive from us, and flow out, filled. It’s not you—it’s Me in you. 


You are nervous around people, because you’re afraid you can’t give them what they need. But if you’re swallowed up by my love, my presence, they will get exactly what they need when they come into contact with you. In struggling to find the "right words," you get disappointed when you think that you missed it. You have “missed it” many times, because you shifted out of hearing me to trying to “figure out” in your own reasoning. Now that you know the difference and you can see how people flow through your life, you will be less afraid. 


Trust me. I know how to speak exactly what people need. I never asked you to figure out what they need. Just love them and listen to my voice in your heart. Enjoy the experience, like you do any day at the beach. Walk in my sunshine, feel my warmth, be cleansed by my water and healed with my salt.

Transformation

You can get to a place where you will be so supple, so pliable in my hands, that it will be easy for you to hear me and immediately turn and do what I am telling you. 


As you continue to spend time with me and walk with me, your attitudes of grumbling and negativity will be revealed. The picture of the transformation that is being worked out in your soul is the picture of my wandering children of Israel who were led by me in the desert and grumbled and protested every time they ran into difficulty. Compare this with their children, who were strangers to the Egyptian gods their parents knew of. They knew no other god but Me. There was no idolatry in the children, because they didn’t know what idolatry was. 


Idolatry will become so foreign to you that you won’t even have to consider it. The children of the desert wanderers were able to cross into the Promised Land because they knew how to follow me by listening to my voice through their new leader, Joshua. Their hearts were so pure within them, as a people, that when they detected a possible sign of rebellion, they immediately confronted it and resolved it. Notice they did it in a peaceful way. You need to be peaceful and kind to yourself when you detect a problem, instead of running in and attacking. Even in that, come to me, and I will tell you how to have peace in your soul. I will give you my peace.

Be a Seer

Keep your heart open and don’t listen to your own mind. Do you know that the people who could not and would not believe in me thought that they were believing in and defending God? I tried to tell them that they were believing in God IF they believed in me, but their minds were made up.


If your mind is made up, then I can’t plant anything in your heart. It isn’t the same as having something settled in your spirit, which you received through revelation, making you unshakeable. A closed mind is a result of human reasoning. Being a seer is looking for my Spirit to bring revelation to your spirit and then your mind understands what I’ve said. 


People who have read scriptures without the input of the Spirit have reasoned out certain issues within their own understanding until it makes sense to them. That’s what I was up against—it was unbelief, but it wasn’t unbelief in God, as so many have today (atheists). They didn’t believe in me because they believed what I was saying didn’t line up with God’s Word and they, in their own reasoning, rejected me. Nevertheless, many believed when they saw the miracles. But those same miracles served to harden the hearts of those who would not see.


That’s what causes spiritual blindness and deafness—witnessing the truth, but rejecting it in favor of your own reasoning, even if your own reasoning isn’t working for you.

Spirit and Life

Look! All are welcome! Approach me and be ready. Because I am the Way, the door to relationship with God, you have to come to me first. There is no other way to be able to drink of the Spirit’s flow. If it were not so, I wouldn’t have told you this. But because you know this, all goodness, all power, all satisfaction—you have access to it.


This is why I say to fix your eyes on me, the author and perfecter of your faith. All things are contained in me, although I myself can’t be contained. Can you open your mouth and drink a whole river? No, but you can taste more and more of it. The more you taste of the river of the Holy Spirit’s revelation, the more you become like Him. His voice becomes a part of you, of your very being. Isn’t this what you say you want? Keep coming to me, drinking of my Spirit, and be changed, be transformed. You don’t have to make it happen, it will happen naturally, as you come to me. Remember, my words are spirit and life to you. Whatever I say to you, do it. And you will live, truly live, beyond what capacity you think you have.


Follow me, worship me, and live daily in my presence. If all my children did this, there would be a lot less trouble in the world. It’s good for you to have fellowship with others who know my voice and understand my Spirit. I will continue to bring those people into your life. But don’t forget that it is also up to you to help others find their way to me. This is the way I do things. Just as I allow you to participate in the creation of new life, physically, through pregnancy and childbirth, and all the joy that brings, so it is for bringing people into spiritual life with me.


 Remember when I said, ‘I have food that you know nothing about’? It wasn’t a condemnation; I just knew they didn’t understand, yet. But eventually they did, once they learned of and from Holy Spirit, and then they also partook of the same joy I knew when someone came to know God. Come, and be refreshed!

Two-way Love Letter

Jesus, this is why I love you so much: You are always so kind to me, it’s easy to trust you with my feelings. There’s a peacefulness that comes over me when I see you sitting beside me. I don’t feel anxious when I’m near you, because your kindness makes me feel secure. I feel your passion to protect me, and your quiet patience while you wait for me to catch up to you, and I feel loved and cherished. I love you so much because you make me feel worthy to be loved.


Everything I’ve done, I’ve done it for you. Everything I have, I’ve given it to you, because I love you so much. I want you to have every opportunity to be happy and blessed. It breaks my heart when you’re hurting. You can always bring that hurting to me. That’s what people who love each other do for each other—comfort when the other one is hurting. Release all your hurts over to me. I can help! No human can really take away your pain, but I am able. And I want to! Believe me!

Focus on the Good

I love you like no one else possibly can. You feel how people who claim to love you have failed terribly. It’s hurtful, and that’s the truth. You also feel that you have failed to love others well, and you haven’t always done so. It’s OK to acknowledge that, but let’s get real. Let’s put it in perspective. Any love that you have experienced or given is "of" me. I am Love. The only reason you or anyone else ever deeply knows what love is, is because I am Love, and I’m in all and through all. I made everything, so everything has my mark on it. 


How about this? How about you stop trying to peer into darkness and instead focus on what is good—love, light, everything about my character. If you do this, you will be less and less disappointed in life, in yourself and others, because you will not even notice the things that aren’t “of” me. You will move from glory to glory, and this will get easier and easier.

Jesus. My First Love

“Return to your first love.”


 Remember how it feels to be in love, at first? Did you strive to feel that way? Did you try to force yourself to want to be around him? No, it was just natural. 


There are so many ideas out there on how to pray, what to pray. But remember your first love; remember what it was like to just enjoy being with me, how simple it was. Draw from the things that allow you to feel comfortable with me and closer to me. You used to pray my word back to me all the time and you really enjoyed that, and because you were relaxed in my presence and all the pressure was off (about what to pray) you started to hear my voice easily. Sitting before me in worship, lifted hands, just praising and singing—this also allowed you to relax in my presence. 


It’s no accident that you connect with me that way. I made you that way. It fits you. It may not fit everyone, just like what helps some others only frustrates you.


When you smile in my presence, you see me smiling, because you are immediately transported to a state of childlikeness. All children see me smiling at them. It also causes a change in your heart toward relaxation, because when you’re smiling, it’s really hard for your body to tense up, so all your muscles relax and even your attitude relaxes and you are less serious and having more fun. I enjoy you and I want you to enjoy me. So smile!

The New Normal

"We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.” 


Whenever you think bad about yourself or talk down to or about yourself, you are participating in raising up lofty thoughts that exalt themselves above what is true about Me. You should see yourself the way I see you. If you could only get to that place... I see you shining with my radiance. 


Getting ahold of my truth is like watching dark clouds part, showing the sun breaking forth behind them. You sometimes feel like you’re trying to push those clouds away with your own hands, in your mind, with your strength. I know it’s because you are trying to get at what’s true, what’s real, to see more clearly. But that’s not how it works. In order for those clouds to move out of the way, you need to be still and wait. The sun, the revelation, will break forth and it will be like an awakening in your heart as you meditate on my Word. You will know the truth and the truth will set you free. It’s not the truth that sets you free; it's only as my truth is “known” by you, deeply, in your spirit, that bondages will break in your life.


Now this teaching about casting down speculations and taking captive every thought unto the obedience of Christ is a response to the problem of forces that actively try to interfere with the revelation process. There are both demonic forces working right now to distract and dissuade you, and there are forces that were set in motion long before you were born, and even from your own past, that cause you to think certain ways. It is only as you hold up the Light of my word as a mirror that you can begin to see those errors in your thinking that you had defined as “normal.” 


When you get the revelation in your spirit that you were mistaken about something, you have a choice. The choice you make will determine the level of freedom you enjoy. If you embrace the truth, confess it, and cast down the erroneous thinking, as well as the demonic forces behind it, you will experience success and have victory over that stronghold. 

Imagination

O Lord, the God of Abraham, Isaac and of Israel, our fathers, keep this forever in the imagination of the thoughts of the heart of thy people, and prepare their heart unto thee. (King David, 1Chron 29:18)


Remember that you are the “David” to your own heart. You can pray this way for yourself anytime you want to have a special spiritual milestone hidden in your heart. 


David thought big; he had great faith, and he had excellent vision. Notice that he asked me to keep the memory alive forever, but he didn’t ask me to put it in the minds of the people. He knew and understood that for a spiritual truth to take root and last forever, as a hardy perennial, the truth of it had to be planted in the heart. 


He was looking out at the whole city, seeing that the people had a soft heart toward me, as evidenced by their abundant generosity. He was ecstatic that they finally understood who I AM to them, and he wanted not just the event itself, but how it felt, how it sounded, to make a lasting impression on his kingdom, a forever impression, because it gave them a sense of what true friendship with God looked like.


This is the same thing I did in designing the feasts of celebration for my people, Israel. The feast times were reminders, but they are so much more than that. All the senses were involved, and anyone who wanted to could see my goodness through the symbols, the music, the excitement of the crowd assembled for that one purpose, and the happiness of reuniting with friends and family. 


Now for you—let me personalize it for you. I don’t want you to just obey me. What I want is for you to experience me, to know me, in all fullness. Obedience is good, inasmuch as it is born out of Love. I want you to obey, but I want you to want to obey. As you come with your imagination open to me, and allow me to fill all your being with my voice, you will be able to love in my kind of love. I made you to see and know in your heart, and this is what brings about the kind of lasting change in you that David wanted to see in Israel.


Now about preparing your heart. David asked me to prepare their heart. You can ask me the same for your heart. You think you’re preparing your heart, but it’s actually impossible for you to prepare your heart on your own. What is born of the flesh is flesh, and what is born of the Spirit is spirit. You don’t actually prepare your heart. You just position your heart. Abide. A tree can’t prepare its own ability to produce sap. The tree is just positioned to receive, and the sap comes. You’ve heard that for years, “Prepare your hearts…” Trust me. You don’t want to prepare your own heart, because it won’t yield any harvest. Keep positioning yourself to receive, and once you do, listen to what I’m showing you and follow me. 

I Will Watch You, Lord

Jesus therefore answered and was saying to them, “Truly, truly I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, unless it is something He sees the Father doing, for whatever the Father does, these things the Son also does in like manner…I can do nothing on my own initiative…” (John 5:19, 30a)

Be blessed, my sister, you have much that you don’t understand, but you will walk with me step by step, moment by moment and you won’t have to worry about missing me. My life is your life. I belong to you and you belong to me. You are always striving, but you should be watching. You should be watching as I give you vision of what I’m doing. I like that you’ve begun to look for a vision of what I am doing in a situation as you pray, because I’m your model and example. You see what I’m doing; do accordingly. Pray, lay hands, speak, do whatever you see me doing.

Father, how can I hear you better when I'm unexpectedly in a position to speak your words into someone's life?

Ask, and pray. Quickly. Take just a second and tell your heart to comply and then hand it over to me. I know this is hard to remember, but if you begin to do this, it will get easier to remember. You absolutely can’t be “in the flesh,” in worry or doubt, if you want to hear what I want to say to the person. 

That’s the next thing—think of your words as containers for my holy words, set your eyes on me and ask me to say the right thing. This will take the burden off of you to say the right thing. It’s not what you say that will bring life and transformation and miracles, but what you see me saying and then speak forth from your mouth. You get to participate, but I do the work. This is the best way for you to accomplish my Kingdom plans.

The Son knew this as he walked the earth. He never worried about whether or not he would say the right thing at the right time. He was always tuned in to my voice, which he could see in his spirit in a variety of ways, just as you do. And then he just simply did what he saw. And that’s what you will do, too, and soon you will find you’re getting better. 

Don’t be discouraged. It’s OK that it’s taken a long time to get to this point. My hand is upon you and has always been, and I’ve led you to this point. It’s all perfect in my time, which is not the same thing as your time. You will be relieved when you start living this way. Watch out for your enemy who is trying to convince you that you will never get this. I want my power and life to pour through you, and because you’re willing to learn, I will!

Open the Eyes of My Heart, Lord

I gave you the eyes of your heart so you could see the things that are invisible, outside of yourself and your natural surroundings. The eyes of your heart can take you to a new level of faith. The just shall live by faith and you walk by faith, not by “sight.” But I’m talking about your natural sight there, that is, what your natural senses can discern. “My people perish for a lack of vision.” You walk by faith with your spiritual eyes open to see my vision! I don’t expect you to walk in blindness; I just expect you to walk past what you can see in the natural.


It is so important to have my vision before you. If you don’t have the image of the goal in your mind, how will you know which direction to go? I told Abram to go to the place I would show him. This is a picture of what I’m saying to you now. Without having any direction in the natural, or even any good reason, and despite what anyone else told him or thought of him, Abram got up, took what he needed and left. How could he do that? I showed him in his heart where I wanted him to go. 


It was the eyes of his heart that allowed him to see the direction of his new home. It was only when he stopped seeing with the eyes of his heart that he got into trouble. The secret to all those who have walked in great faith is that they “saw.” You can walk in great faith when you begin to “see,” with the eyes of your heart, and then act on what you are seeing me saying and doing.


I would say to you to continue to cultivate the eyes of your heart and not just so you can enjoy the visions. Know that as my vision flows to you, you are knowing me better, and know that my vision is also doing a work in you, and also will give you direction that you must move in. Imagine Abram looking around at all his family, all his home, and deciding he was content where he was and that he wasn’t going to move. He could have come up with a dozen excuses to stay. Here’s the good news; Divine vision impels you forward. The choice is yours, but when you get that certainty, that revelation in your spirit, there comes with it a strength and a strong desire to run with it.


Now that you have become convinced that my voice comes to you through images, not just once in awhile but all the time and anytime you choose to look, you are on the brink of some major change. Don’t forget to continue to spend time in my presence, or you will return to mediocrity. Even if you do forget, I will always be speaking, and you will hear me from time to time, but you can have so much more than that. You see that it’s true; now walk in it. 


Keep your “eyes” on me and not on your failures, that is, the cycle you feel you’re in that keeps you constantly beating yourself up for not making it to our appointments. Can you forgive yourself, give yourself grace and put that behind you? Let’s move forward together. The devil can’t tempt me to feel anything bad about you, so don’t you let him, either. Keep your eyes on me, keep speaking the Truth out, and you will see transformation. Don’t look at the problem, look at Me! See how I speak to mountains, not about how big they are or how difficult they will be to move. Let me put the vision of the mountain removed in your heart, and then believe and speak that. 


Oh, now you’re beginning to believe with me! A broken pattern of negative behavior feels like weight lifted off your body and soul. The cycle is broken already. Let my dreams and vision come in and sweep away the debris. You are free, as a fly escaping from a spider’s web, and I take my broom and destroy and remove the web, spider and all. Now that you are free, I want you to speak that out. Make that your confession from now on. You are free to get up in the morning, noon, night, whenever, to meet with me. You have the strength and desire to do so. You are no longer under a burden of guilt and shame. You have spoken it, and I’ve done it, and now you believe it. Press on, daughter.    

Enfolded in Glory

"I speak the things which I have seen with my Father." (John 8:38)

Yes, I came that I could show you what it’s like to have a relationship with Father. It’s how I walked with Adam and Eve. They walked and talked with me and I listened to them, and they listened to me. This is always how I want it to be with us.

Let my glory enfold you as you walk with me. Let my joy overtake you. I will show you great and mighty things that you don’t know of right now. This will become common, normal for you. Continue to take time to meet with me so I can speak with you. The words I say to you will bring you light and encouragement, and as you share them with others, you will bless them, as well. I will still speak to you from my Word, but yes, I will also speak my heart to you in new ways, and you can trust what I’m saying to you. My words are spirit and they are life to you. Receive them by faith; speak them out loud to yourself and others, as you have opportunity.

Most Christians long to hear from me in a personal way, like they did when they were infants (in the Lord). Now they feel like they’ve lost something. And they have, but it’s not because I don’t long to connect with them and share my heart with them. You have felt this way, and I’ve been leading you and encouraging you and prodding you forward, and look! You’re learning. In the same way, others will learn from you.

You don’t need to worry that you’ll get to a place where you are unable to grow any further. You’ve thought that in the past, from time to time, and next thing you know, I’ve revealed something new that changes you. You just continue walking and talking with me; it won’t go unnoticed and it won’t be for nothing. My word is what changes you, prunes you, and causes you to bear much and much and much fruit. 

Heaven Comes to Earth

Lord, would you show me how Heaven comes to me?


The source of everything starts out as my sovereign choice. I wanted to save you…and the others. The way I chose to do it was through blood. So a clear river of life is born out of shed blood, the Lamb. All things come forth out of heaven because of that blood. It is so important. Of utmost importance. It’s why I call it the cleansing blood. How can blood clean anything? Blood is messy, in the natural. In the natural it’s a sign of death. But in the spiritual the blood is life. It is that very life that causes you to have life.


You see the water, the river, clean and pure. Look at what Jesus said. He said to come and drink of Him. Remember the Feast of Tabernacles. My people had to totally, completely rely on me for their every physical need (in the wilderness). There was water there. They were afraid they wouldn't have enough, in the natural. Jesus promises there is an unlimited supply of water in the Spirit for all who would believe in Him and drink it. He describes it as a river flowing.


If I’m speaking to you, Ellen, you can trust me, what I say. The words are only as valuable as the quality of our relationship. It is my voice that will be as a river to you, and you access it by delighting in me and that allows me to show you how much I delight in you . How do you abide in me? Through my voice speaking. How do I abide in you? As you listen to my voice and it becomes revelation to you, in your heart. As you begin to flow in this way, you will produce fruit and have full, green leaves of healing for others to draw from.


You know that’s not where it ends. Father prunes when He sees fruit, because He likes more fruit. With more fruit, more people are touched. The blood, the river, the water, the vine, the fruit, and the leaves— they are all the same and for the same purpose: that people would know God. That’s why he loves you to produce more and more fruit. When people get a taste of the fruit being produced through you, it is the same thing to them as tasting God, and they will know the Father better. So the river flowing out of you is the same thing as the fruit being produced through the branch. I used the branch (picture), because it’s easy to picture a dead branch connected to a living vine. That shows the idea that it’s possible for a branch to die even though it appears to be attached to the vine. It’s attached, but there’s no flow there. So spiritually, you can check to see if you’re attached to the flow of God by seeing if there’s fruit in your life. You can always get back in the flow of God by coming back to me and hearing my voice, and my words will once again bring life to you and through you. This is what the Father wants. He doesn’t want any dead, lifeless, fruitless branches. And you know what the dead branch is—it’s religion.

My Always Good Pleasure

My word is completely trustworthy and you don’t ever need to be afraid of it. My plans are always good, all the time, and my goodness is always what I want to see in your life. You’ve thought the harvest was only to bless other people, but did you consider that I want to see my people plant my seeds and harvest things, because it pleases me? It’s my Always Good pleasure to see my words of life being multiplied and enjoyed by people. When the enemy comes to kill, steal and destroy, did you know that he doesn’t do it because he hates you, so much (although he hates the idea of you), but it’s because he hates me so much and wants to hurt me. That’s why he will try to steal seed and destroy harvests. He knows it will hurt me to see you hurt. But you can trust my promise to you. My word will never come back to me void. Stick with me; you’ll see it come to pass.